Rainy Day

I have had so many stupid ideas in my life, so stupid in fact that I’m too embarrassed to tell you what they are. But in all my little businesses and side projects, I’ve learned a lot about myself and what I like and don’t like. One thing I learned is that when something means a lot to you, when the stakes are heavy and high, you try to avoid it. For as long as possible. I’ve always loved the arts. I always knew I could sing. Back in the day when I was singing in the subway, I tried all these other things, avoiding going professional as long as possible, just because the singing and the performing was the most important thing. But what if I tried it and failed? What if something bad happened to ruin it forever. Then it’s like you spend your days wasting away in a cave of fear. It’s not until you put yourself out there that you are really living life. When I say put yourself out there, it could be with anything really. It means expressing who you really are, in any facet shape or form. Telling someone you love them, telling someone you disagree with them, moving on from something or someone else. It means taking the thing you are afraid of and reveling in it. It means using your real voice. Last night I watched Jillian Michael’s (the trainer from The Biggest Loser) new show, and despite the fact that it was a little bit much, there was a scene where she talked about trying to get her “trainee”, who was scarred and traumatized due to the death of her husband, to use her own voice. She may not have used that exact sentence, but that’s what it translated to in my mind. So anyway, that’s so terribly hard isn’t it? That’s the chore, that’s the duty of all of us. Otherwise we’re just a bunch of walking crypts, our minds and souls dying away on the inside.

This afternoon I listened to an interview with Joan Rivers on talk radio on the way home from the gym. It may have been NPR or some station like that. What a great interview! I never knew Joan Rivers was so interesting! What a life she had! She just speaks what’s on her mind. She was saying how comedy pushes the envelope and gets people to talk about things they wouldn’t normally talk about which is so true.

I’m sitting at a coffee shop writing this. It’s raining outside. I have a pot of tea on the table next to my laptop. I think the guy behind me is straining to read what I’m writing, and I’m not just being paranoid. I’m wondering how you are doing, and what you are thinking right now. 🙂

Songs

First of all I have to start out by saying that I love Shazam. It’s this app on my iphone that recognizes any song. Today I Shazam’ed a song that I thought could be perfect for a cover during my live set, “I Should Have Known It.” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers, but it turns out it’s for an album that’s not even out yet. I didn’t even know he was coming out with a new album! I also Shazamed, El Sapito, Villanosam Feat. Mozart La Para, and this other song which I’ve heard a lot out and about, but I never who it was from I love this song, its “Calabria” (Club Mix) by Enur Feat. Natasja. Any ideas for a good cover let me know! Later! xoxo

New Video on YouTube/Forbidden Fruits update

Hi everyone,

I’m uploading a video to YouTube as we speak. It’s a cover of the B.O.B. song “Airplanes”. I didn’t want to be in the video alone, so my sister is in there too. We talk about how we are such misfits, and our comparisons of NY and LA. How was everyone’s memorial day? What did you do? What do you think of my new blog? Oh by the way, I got a lot of feedback from my song Forbidden Fruits after it was on the Hills on MTV. It’s not out yet, so you won’t be able to find it anywhere, but check back here and I’ll let you know as the release date draws near. Also check out my new lyrics page here on my blog, I’ll be posting the lyrics to my songs as they come out. Since my song I Wonder is already on my myspace page, that’ll be the first song I post. Till later!